Friday, January 19, 2007
12:09 AM
wee!! my grandsheep! haha... i think he looks like a hamster =D
My sheep!!! haha... and of curz... as usual... i still think that he looks like a cartoon dino=D. haha.+ AMEN
12:05 AM
Haha. My Dinner! =). Just because i refused to eat rice, i have to cook... haha.
The difference between ice milo and milo dino! haha... the extra milo power topping!!!
Haha. This is my big boss! haha... Jasmine say he looks like a martian from ET. haha...
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Thursday, January 18, 2007
11:36 PM
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Saturday, January 13, 2007
11:40 PM
oo! i uploaded videos unto YouTube! users go and view! haha.. serach for user, Icyboyz XD
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Thursday, January 11, 2007
12:27 AM
my mum was questioning me why i'm always at parkway and why i'm always skipping work. and how she is trying to convince me not to serve so hard in church and how she threathened (as usual) to complain to bingliang. haha... some how this incident sound so like ryun... bahh... didn't know why i actually threathened back that i would quit my job if she carried on... hur hur... felt quite bad... but den again.. was quite comforted that i didn't actually fall in my faith. den again. God... i want more patience and guidance from the Holy Spirit to handle such circumstances. haha. MORE! haha. cuz i can predict more to come in the next few months... anyway. GOD IS GREAT! haha.. =)
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Wednesday, January 03, 2007
11:21 PM
anyway... kinda weird to say this but i'm not really stressed over the job, but more of my time. feel kinda stupid to start work without even knowing how much i'm paid or wad is my working hours... more of the working hours that i'm worried about... praying that it will not clash with both my pastoral and ministry stuffs... haha...
tml we should be having a caregroup. but looking at the confirmation... my side of the caregroup there is like no one going... and the attendence now is only 4...
listening to the song "at the foot of the Cross"... i keep on telling myself to not care my burdens on me, but to lay them at the foot of the Cross instead....
finally poured out my emotions to God yesterday night. somehow... it felt warmth... i have never felt how real the word is in my life. how practical it is towards my life. i was listening to the song "worship You alone" and after that i simply poured out everything in my heart... just as i used to do... just as i did in encounter... haha... just that this time, the warmth is stronger.... hahas... should have done that long ago...
come to think of it... i feel sad about the group... but at the same time... i feel comfored that if i were to try my best... God will pick up the remaining lots and finish it... =D
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12:09 PM
Lets welcome... *drum rolls*... KEITH! haha. dunno why but he is now my new found son. haha. most prob cuz he said that i sounded like his dad. lol.
haha. anyway... shall blog more tonight... going off to work le. haha. shall not start work late today =D
Keith Rocks, Aloysius Stones! lolo =D
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Tuesday, January 02, 2007
3:01 PM
Was reading Every man's challange. talked about how God likes to place pop-quiz in our lifes to test our faith and trust in Him. it is also thru these pop-quiz that we know if we are heading where we intended to and if we are achieving the standard that we are aiming to achieve in God. Today, once again, which is sad to say, i failed the pop-quiz again. Think it was quite sad for God to see me fail in the quiz AGAIN, but it has let me know that i'm still far from where i should go. I'm still far from the potential that i can reach to. Bahhh...
God, i admit that i'm a sinner and that You are the only one that can clense my whole heart. Lord, i pray that my heart would be soften and can once again feel your tengable love. i pray that i would be senstive to the Holy Spirit promptings in my heart and i would respond to them and Lord may You guide me thru these times of trails and that You would be with me in my heart. Lord i thank You for Your stubborn love torwards me and the grace that is upon me. Amen
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1:41 AM
by Hillsong United
Say the word and I will sing for You
Over oceans deep, I will follow
If each star was a song
And every breath of wind, praise
It would still fail by far to say
All my heart contains
I simply live, I simply live for You
As the glory of Your presence
Now fills this place
In worship, we will meet You face to face
There is nothing in this world
To which You can be compared
Glory on glory, praise upon praise
You bind the broken hearted
And save all my tears
By Your word, You set the captives free
There is nothing in this world
That You cannot do
I simply live, I simply live for You
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1:32 AM
You have shown me your love through the judgement You received
And You've won my heart
Yes, You've won my heart, now I can
Trade these ashes in for beauty and wear forgiveness like a crown
Coming to kiss the feet of mercy, I lay every burden down
At the foot of the cross
At the foot of the cross where I am made complete
You have given me life through the death You bore for me
And You've won my heart
Yes, You've won my heart, now I can
And You've won my heart
Yes, You've won my heart, now I can
Trade these ashes in for beauty and wear forgiveness like a crown
Coming to kiss the feet of mercy, I lay every burden down
At the foot of the cross
Trade these ashes in for beauty and wear forgiveness like a crown
Coming to kiss the feet of mercy, I lay every burden down
I lay every burden down, I lay every burden down
the foot of the cross
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12:45 AM
woke up quite late, almost 12 den i woke up. was quite a borring day. was watching LOTR the fellowship of the ring and basically just rotting away while thinking of the serveral stuffs that i was ranting about yeterday night.
went out with my mum for shopping. haha. kinda stupid cuz i'm really not a shopping guy. ask me to go shopping for my prom clothes and i almost died. haha. kinda stupid lah. considering my cg guys are all big shoppers. LOL.. anyway. bought 3 gidarno dry polo and a converse shoe in the end.
was back home and called alvin to plan for a outdoor caregroup as we are unsure if we are able to get a new venue for cg... hiax. just realised how much we forgot how luckly we are to have a place for cg just outside our school last time. hiax. sad to say its now just over... still searching around for somewhere that can accept us. haha.. but anyway, planned for the outdoor one with ryunkiat, wilfred, dinkiat, alvin and me. yups. shan't say much of the details here =D... haha... it shall be somewhat a suprise =).
suddenly i just realised how long nathan has left for australlia. it has almost been 2 months... and how that school is reopening, I really hope to see nathan in chungcheng... really hope that he would come back to singapore. not sure why. but i suddenly miss him... a lot... actually not only him. but many others too. was surfing friendster just now and i just realised how much i have not been in contact with my old friends. haha. not sure why. but i'm feeling emo today... kinda bad to be feeling emo at the moment, but... hias...
saw many things in the group that are happening. not sure how to bring this up to my leaders, actually, i dun even know it much myself. but i kept thinking when i saw problems that the group people are facing. do i myself face this problem without actually knowing it. everytime i look at my sheep and i see a problem that is surfacing, i start to ask myself. do i too have that problem? looking backwards at how much God has brought me throughout this 1 1/2 years of walking with Him... how far i went in this walk that i started when i first stepped into Hope... how much i have matured after having this relationship with Him. saw many things, saw how i just suddenly felt so lost then i lost those that are close to me. how i felt injured when i got bitten. how i felt just so desperate when no one is doing anything. but i'm glad to say that God is always there for me. seemes to be that i'm currently in a situation as such. but upon thinking back of all the pass happenings, i'm reminded that God will never leave me. He is always there for me, if i turn towards Him. am i turning torwards Him during these times of trouble? or am I just facing it alone? how i seek to settle problems in the group. i begin to start to think. if i myself is floating away from the first love that i seek.
herms.. kinda unlike me to get emotional or emo... but i'm feeling it... maybe i'm no cold afterall...
God, I want to look back at Your word and Your love once again with the same innocecnce that I once had when I first came into contact with You as a child. Help me to seek You in times of troubles and no based on my own strengths. God, You are the all mighty one. I pray that You will place Your hands onto the problems that the group is currently facing, parental procutions and the heart problems. Touch all our hearts once again and let us remember our first love with You. Amen.
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Monday, January 01, 2007
11:57 PM
I could sing of Your Love forever....
I could sing of Your Love forever...
I could sing of Your Love forever...
Lord I fell like dancing...
It foolishness I know...
But when the world has seen the light..
They will dance with joy like we're dancing now...
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1:42 AM
Seems to me that I have not been blogging for quite sometime, AGAIN. well, as usual, i'm here to sweep the spider webs off my blog with some posts =D
This week have been quite an interesting and lazy one. it has been raining for almost the whole week! haha. creating a very nice atmosphere to visit God is lala land. haha. yup. spent quite sometime at home (finally some time at home during the holidays). haha.
Had several events this week mainly meeting Jia, gurl and daniel for lunch, sort of like a MCG, shepherding at my shepherd's hse, MM retreat and COUNTDOWN! haha.
MM retreat was great. managed to bond to not only the mm team, but also the lights and sound team. really saw each of us as part of a big family then in a ministry. really glad to see most of the team down for the retreat at santosa. haha. the chicken team! and the banana team! haha. it was fun, but most of us got sunburnt at the end of it, after dunking many of us into the sea, and we managed to get the gurls wet =D. really glad to see how da xiong and da jo lead the two teams =D. hehe =)
Today went for countdown! i was feeling kinda down with after hearing the attendence of the group that are turining up for the countdown today. Only me, wilfred and bingliang was able to make it down. was thinking about what happened to our group during the holidays. actually, many things happened. and it happened so fast that i hardly had any time to react. one of our very dear cl had to leave for australia to study and the group started to fall apart. suddenly, everything seemed to be in a mess, and with the sec4s having their big O, the group suddenly was left helpless. even as the sec4s finish their Os, things never really improved. infact i felt that we became worst. I'm not sure why, but it felt different. the group felt so different from the eastD2n3 that i knew after encounter. problems after problems started to flow into the group, and we didn't even stay in a constant number, infact, our number fell drastictally. People started to get discouraged and emotional. It was kinda hard... hard to bring up the atmosphere in the group again. is God trying to mould us? or is He testing out faith... desire... love... really hope to see the same spirit after encounter camp in eastD2n3 again. the same hunger for people and the desperation, love and care for people. People far, astray from God...
God change us. change our hearts...
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